depression to happiness

hwaaaa,,,,
i'm soo confused,,,i haven't got any from my college life,,TTxTT

its sad,,,really saad,,,
although there are soo many people there who share the same incommon as i did,, but i just can't get the right conversation with them,,
i actually already have tons of question i wanna sk to them,,
but when facing them,,all of taht just dissapeared suddenly,,,oh gosh,,why am i being like this??

now they gonna think that i'm a freak or something,,cause i didn't talk much,,
now i wonder,, i could get along fine with my highschool friends that not share the same incommon,,but why can't i get along just the same when i found someone that share the same incommon?? i've become confused myself,,,

aaiisshh!!! just thinking about it makes me crazy,,,i don't want to feel like this anymore,,
so thats why i'm decided to actively write down my blog,,
cause this is the only way i colud pour out all of my feeling,,
i actually want to talk about this with my 'uke' but,,

i already decided to myself that i don't want to be seen as a whimper or a crybaby anymore,,
soo i kept al my sad feeling to myself,,^^